Thursday, July 10, 2014

Long time no see!

Oh man, I don't know how all of you teacher/blogger/tpt authors/humans keep up with it all!  I just can't! And since I couldn't keep up, I just stopped all together.

Like with everything else, I tend to be a perfectionist.  I've learned it's tied in highly to my anxiety/depression issues.  So, when I had my break down last summer, blogging was one of the things that I chose to let go of.  It was one of the only things I had the control to let go of.  I also sprung my unhappiness on my poor husband on the way home from picking him up at the airport after 35 days apart (he commercial fishes in AK in the summer), wrote my principal an e-mail voicing my displeasure in myself and my performance as a teacher, and FINALLY (in September) lost it at my annual doctors visit.  Thank goodness, the nurse and I have a great relationship.  She knew something was up, and just wouldn't let it go. After an hour of crying about nothing, I left with some new prescriptions and a hope that maybe I could one day be happy again and not feel like my world was crashing down around me because I wasn't good enough.  (Irrational much? Don't worry, I SEE that now, looking back.)

So now that I've had almost a year of being properly medicated I've realized that I can do bits and pieces of everything I love. (seriously, SO thankful for doctors, medication, and the fact that I don't have to feel like I did last summer for the rest of my life!) None of it has to be perfect, it won't ever be as perfect as I want, anyway. But if I enjoy it, which I do love connecting with other teachers out there in the world, then it is worth me doing.

I'm not making any promises about how often, or how much I'll be blogging, because I want it to be a hobby.  I know lots of you do it for a job, and as a marketing tool for your products, but those aren't my top priorities. Although, I do now have a real TPT store and TN store with a few products in them (I'm giving away my latest product over on TN right now!).  Nothing too fancy, and not very many, because I refuse to make something I'm not going to use in my own classroom, but it's there and I made enough money to pay back my premium upgrade last year and cover this years :) I also started a FB fan page and am on Instagram.  Look at me being BACK!
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